Tuesday, February 14, 2006

cupid missed a spot

Happy Valentine’s Day!

All of your wonderful comments in my partial absense underscored the guilt I feel about not being able to get back here with personal messages in a timely fashion. I am truly sorry abut that, but it’s been very busy for me of late. That is not an excuse, of course, but I will try to do better in the future.

The whole Big Green experience has been hard on my system. I work evenings, and my body clock is adjusted for late night rambling. So usually I go to the first and second jobs with 2-4 hours of sleep, and some of the greediest, nastiest customers I’ve seen (especially at Big Green).

That is, of course until you tell them they’re getting a pile of money back. Then they’re your fucking best friend. Money's funny that way.

Even with the bullshit, Big Green is strangely enough still better than my other job, though the camaraderie is pretty much non-existent because of the transient nature of the place, and the pay sucks.

It's not all bad though I don’t mind dressing up to go to work, and it is at least something on my resume other than LMW, so I can take it for the interim.

One of my friends has pretty much turned me against AIM, because he’s yet another counseling component I have to listen to if I go on. The worst part about him is that he’s intensely stubborn and somewhat vindictive, so anything I say can, will, and has been used against me.

Then my dad is getting on all of our nerves. I understand that he doesn’t feel good with all his conditions, but he’s really trying to run my mom into the ground by being unnecessarily needy and he’s been very nasty to just about everybody. I think that’s more than sickness. I think he’s embracing his inner bastard.

Oh and did I tell you my estranged brother has started reading my blog, so now I feel like I’m being shadowed…just like usual. He won’t even let me have THAT just for myself. LOL

I’ve just read through what I wrote and I guess I'm more stressed than I thought.

Anyway, I had to get all that off my chest. Thanks for understanding.


  1. My own family totally passed me over on Valentine's Day. It was terribly depressing...so what did I do? Drank with Bob...misery loves idiocy apparently!

    I should've just stayed in and got wasted to chick flicks dammit!

  2. Oh man. That sucks on both counts. Sounds like you should have made it a Blockbuster night.

    Actually, I'm kind of surprised you and L didn't have something planned for the evening.

  3. Yeah, I've got a mile long rant in the blog hopper on that one. I couldn't possibly be more bitter.